-----UPDATED 3/13/08 @1:00AM-----
First of all... Here's the song list: (This Week's Theme: Christ's Beauty)
‘Till I See You –Hillsong London (E)
Awesome is the Lord Most High –Chris Tomlin (G)
Beautiful One –Tim Hughes (D)
Son of God –Starfield (G#)
More Than Life –Hillsong United (G)
Second of all... REMINDER:
This Week's practice is Sat. 3/15 @12PM (noon)
Third of all... ANNOUNCEMENT:
After practice... (for those of us who can)... Jin Hee suggested we go to the beach! (weather permitting)... so... let's go!!!
Finally... I had a dream about us the other night:
“31 My people come to you, as they usually do, and sit before you to listen to your words, but they do not put them into practice. With their mouths they express devotion, but their hearts are greedy for unjust gain. 32 Indeed, to them you are nothing more than one who sings love songs with a beautiful voice and plays an instrument well, for they hear your words but do not put them into practice.” (Ezekiel 33:31-32)
I had a dream about us the other night, and it goes something like this…
We were at practice. Everybody was there and by the end I felt like we had a solid practice, covered all the parts we needed to cover, everything went very well, and I felt comfortable with our whole set for Sunday. (In reality, I never feel comfortable coming out of practice.)
Next thing I know, we’re leading worship on Sunday, and an unbelievable number of people are at our church and filled the seats and the whole sanctuary. But as we’re leading worship, it’s nothing like how we practiced and we’re soon adlibbing and improvising the whole worship! So obviously I’m growing frustrated and having a hard time focusing on worship. Then when I took a look out at everyone worshipping they are all doing their own things and not worshipping at all! At this point I guess Justin saw that I was struggling and he took over singing for me and in the MIDDLE OF THE SONG I came down from the stage and stormed out of church out of frustration.
Hmmm… I don’t remember if I shared with you guys before about a similar dream I had couple months back. In that dream though, I stormed out of church went into another room and began praying (more like crying out to God). This time however, all I can remember from the dream is just roaming around outside expressing my frustration.
To tell you the truth I don’t know how to interpret this dream, and maybe it’s not meant to be interpreted. Most likely it stems from my personal issues dealing with worship and my inner fears and frustrations of things not going the way I planned to be. Perhaps this dream really doesn’t mean anything and maybe it’s not that important.
But whether the issue is real or perceived, personal or corporate, I know that the issue is there. The issue is that God exists to be worshipped and we exist to worship God. And no matter how hard we try to run from that fact, or chase it to perfectly understand it, our primal desire and need to worship is never satisfied, nor God’s worth ever fully glorified through our worship.
So as I have told you guys before, what I actually experience through our worship is totally the opposite of what I dreamt the other day. Our practice could be sub par and our preparation inadequate, but when I let go and just begin to worship, His grace usually shines through, along with His glory. However, that’s not to say I’m ever satisfied. I always feel like we can be better. No, that’s not right. I always feel like God could be BIGGER.
I don’t know about you guys but I really enjoyed last week’s worship. Even as we were leading I thought to myself, ‘Wow, God is blessing us again and we’re doing good’. But that positive thought soon turned out to be a stumbling block merely because I couldn’t let go of that thought. I kept thinking ‘we’re doing good, we’re doing good’, that afterwards I felt like ‘Ok, we did good, but how did God do?’. God can definitely be BIGGER through our worship, in our church, in our personal lives, EVERYWHERE.
I had a dream about us the other night, and it goes something like this…
We were at practice. Everybody was there and by the end I felt like we had a solid practice, covered all the parts we needed to cover, everything went very well, and I felt comfortable with our whole set for Sunday. (In reality, I never feel comfortable coming out of practice.)
Next thing I know, we’re leading worship on Sunday, and an unbelievable number of people are at our church and filled the seats and the whole sanctuary. But as we’re leading worship, it’s nothing like how we practiced and we’re soon adlibbing and improvising the whole worship! So obviously I’m growing frustrated and having a hard time focusing on worship. Then when I took a look out at everyone worshipping they are all doing their own things and not worshipping at all! At this point I guess Justin saw that I was struggling and he took over singing for me and in the MIDDLE OF THE SONG I came down from the stage and stormed out of church out of frustration.
Hmmm… I don’t remember if I shared with you guys before about a similar dream I had couple months back. In that dream though, I stormed out of church went into another room and began praying (more like crying out to God). This time however, all I can remember from the dream is just roaming around outside expressing my frustration.
To tell you the truth I don’t know how to interpret this dream, and maybe it’s not meant to be interpreted. Most likely it stems from my personal issues dealing with worship and my inner fears and frustrations of things not going the way I planned to be. Perhaps this dream really doesn’t mean anything and maybe it’s not that important.
But whether the issue is real or perceived, personal or corporate, I know that the issue is there. The issue is that God exists to be worshipped and we exist to worship God. And no matter how hard we try to run from that fact, or chase it to perfectly understand it, our primal desire and need to worship is never satisfied, nor God’s worth ever fully glorified through our worship.
So as I have told you guys before, what I actually experience through our worship is totally the opposite of what I dreamt the other day. Our practice could be sub par and our preparation inadequate, but when I let go and just begin to worship, His grace usually shines through, along with His glory. However, that’s not to say I’m ever satisfied. I always feel like we can be better. No, that’s not right. I always feel like God could be BIGGER.
I don’t know about you guys but I really enjoyed last week’s worship. Even as we were leading I thought to myself, ‘Wow, God is blessing us again and we’re doing good’. But that positive thought soon turned out to be a stumbling block merely because I couldn’t let go of that thought. I kept thinking ‘we’re doing good, we’re doing good’, that afterwards I felt like ‘Ok, we did good, but how did God do?’. God can definitely be BIGGER through our worship, in our church, in our personal lives, EVERYWHERE.
And the one way we'll experience a BIGGER GOD is when we see real and practical changes and growths in our lives and in our church. Changes that we thought were impossible, and growths that we thought were too hard. Then we know God is at work and that we're in the middle of God's revival, God's great work to make us like-Christ to share in His Kingdom.
Praying that Ezekiel 33:31-32 never speaks the truths of us...
Unquenchable Worshipper,
-sHin
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3 comments:
you shud keep previous entries.. i like them.. ^-^;;
Yay! somebody finally commented on a post... thank you yackie...kaka
You can find the previous entries on the archives section ;)
well, here I post comment again after reading updated blog.
I definitely agree that we sometime lack focus.. I don't know about other people, but I definitely do.
I realized through my experience of being in praise team for many years that every time I lose focus from God to something else, whether it is looking at other people who are worshiping or thinking of what I need to do in next transition or something, I make a mistake! haha.. interesting...
I think both musically and spiritually we do the best when we are focusing on God.
I have to tell you honestly... last week, I was totally out of focus... Most of the times, I try to empty my head and heart and just worship, but for some reason last week, all these 잡생각 were in my head.. -_-;;
and whether you guys noticed or not, I screwed a little in the beginning Hosanna and some other parts... it was minor tho.. haha..
anyways... so... i don't really a have point, but wanted to throw some stuff out there wondering how other people think of our worship...
I like our praise team :)
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